if only, I can

This is my baby the day she was born. (felt so pity for her). I was just eight months pregnant when I gave birth to Zoe Fatima. I just don't know what triggers my early delivery, my OB says maybe I got stress or I got so tired. I have blamed myself so much. I cried and cried when I first saw her and can't stay for a long period of time at the nursery section to see her. I go home from hospital without my baby she was left enabling the Pedia to take good care for her much more than I can. And she was also putted in an incubator to help her lungs to become fully develop. She was hospitalized for seven days. It's so hard. If only we can change position, I am more than willing to have dextrose and everything for her not to suffer.